"Mina,
I've sat down a few times to write this email, but I wanted to make sure I gave it the attention it deserves.
I want to say THANK YOU for shining your light and sharing your truth on YouTube. It was what led me to your courses, and they have truly changed my life.
I started with the Worthy Woman course, which led me to explore relationships, money mindset, and finally, what it means to be a feminine embodiment of a high-value goddess. I know I have a long path ahead, but I'm no longer daunted. I know it will be easier than I ever expected, better than I imagined, and it will feel like an unfolding, a coming home to me - which is such a relief, because for years I struggled with trying to mold myself into the form of other women I admired. Now, I am more myself than ever - I've just peeled away the facade of trying to be what society or family might have wanted, and scrubbed away the darkness of trauma and victimhood.
I was raised by a mother with narcissistic personality disorder and a father who enabled her and was physically abusive himself. It left me confused about how to be in relationships in a healthy way, and there were many years where I sought the love I never got from my parents in the men that I dated. I'm sure you can guess how terribly that ended. I had a lot of baggage by the time I was in my mid-twenties and had given up on finding a husband.
Then I met my now-fiancee. I didn't see him as a potential boyfriend at the time - but as he proved he could establish himself financially and that he was willing to "rise to the occasion" to meet my standards, things shifted, and we started to both see each other as potential spouse material.
Of course, we both had growing up to do. And it hasn't always been an easy road. But last year, after having beeb his girlfriend for 7 years, I hit a breaking point. I decided I was tired of waiting, I wanted to be married, and I wasn't going to wait for him anymore. I didn't tell him, but my energy sure did. I did the 90 day relationship rehab and the conscious couples courses. I started putting myself first, taking care of me, and focusing on being the woman who was reciprocal for the kind of man I wanted. And about 6 months into all of this, I really noticed he shifted, too. He started taking me on very nice dates, he said goodbye to immature friends, and he started talking about how he was going to aggressively pursue raises in his career so that we could have the wedding, honeymoon, and home we both we wanted. I'll be honest, I didn't really believe him. I needed to see it to believe it.
And then, he planned a vacation for us. He didn't tell me any of the details, he didn't make me do any of the planning (something I hate to do), and it was better than I ever could have imagined. He proposed right at the beginning, and we spent the week at 5 star resorts and eating at the very best restaurants. He told me how he'd purposefully planned it so we would have lifetime memories of this important time together - it was perhaps the most loving and thoughtful thing anyone has ever done for me. I finally relaxed into trusting his love, and trusting I could have the relationship and life I wanted.
Never in my dreams would I have imagined my engagement would come with a week of luxury vacation. I always felt like I'd be so lucky to have the proposal that I wouldn't even care about where or how. I realize now how ridiculous that is - and how much more I deserve, and it kind of breaks my heart to see how little I thought I was worth.
Now we are planning our wedding - and it's again a reminder that I don't have to limit my desires. I can speak them with audacity and clarity, and receive even more than I expect.
Life gets to be magickly fantastic, awe-inspiring, and more richly beautiful than I could ever have imagined. This is the gift of goddess embodiment.
Thank you for helping me find my way home to myself, Mina.
- Jennifer
P.S. I'll include a photo of myself in case you want to use this anywhere publicly. And also, because you asked to see the ring, I'm sending you a ring pic, too."
